Insanity

More and more lately I've been feeling like I'm actually insane. It wouldn't surprise me. My grandma is insane. she's been in a mental hospital. My dad has been in a mental hospital. Almost everyone in my family has some form of depression. And I feel like mine is really relaly bad. Like, worse than it should be. So bad that, sometimes I think I might end up in a hospital, and that scares me.

Depression symptoms: (the bolded are ones I experience)

difficulty concentrating, remembering details, and making decisions
fatigue and decreased energy
feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness
feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism
insomnia, early-morning wakefulness, or excessive sleeping
irritability, restlessness
loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex
overeating or appetite loss
persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment
persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" feelings
thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts

Major Depression symptoms: (bolded, again)

Fatigue or loss of energy almost every day
Feelings of worthlessness or guilt almost every day
Impaired concentration, indecisiveness
Insomnia or hypersomnia (excessive sleeping) almost every day
Markedly diminished interest or pleasure in almost all activities nearly every day (called anhedonia, this symptom can be indicated by reports from significant others.)
Psychomotor agitation or retardation (restlessness or being slowed down)
Recurring thoughts of death or suicide (not just fearing death)
Significant weight loss or gain (a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month) ... not anymore, but at one time this was a problem.